The days before the Winter Solstice are always the darkest with minimal light in the daytime. It is no different this year in the Pacific Northwest. I have noticed how I am affected by the lack of sunlight. The good news is the sun won’t be hidden for long. Starting after today, the Solstice, we will be gaining back a minute of light every day!
It had been raining for days. It was soaking wet outdoors. So, for a change, my husband CK and I decided to take a walk in the nearby mall. What a stark contrast it was inside! Gone were the Peace and the Quiet of Nature. It was very bright with artificial lights and glittering Christmas decorations. With all the sales going on, there were a lot of people walking around looking for gifts. Christmas carols were playing constantly in the background. Everyone looked busy, even those sitting on chairs and benches. I felt like I was watching a scene in a movie. I was just observing until I saw a crowd of young people walk by. I felt a twinge of sadness and knew I was missing Leo. I shared that with CK as we turned into a quieter area. He knows that Leo is always with us. I asked our son for a sign that couldn’t be missed.
Within seconds, something caught our attention. We saw a man a few feet from us pushing a gold helium balloon away and down an escalator. Just as I thought that was strange, my husband alerted me to look the other way. That same man walked back to a woman who was carrying a child. And the child was carrying a small backpack designed as a ‘monkey.’ We knew this was the sign from Leo. His birth year is a Monkey year and his grandparents used to call him ‘Monkey Boy’ as a term of endearment. Monkeys for us don’t have the same negative connotation as they do in North American culture. I thanked our son for the precious gift of showing us he was right there with us.
And that was not the only gift Leo has given us recently. It was about two weeks ago when my loving husband tended to some of the boxes we had brought home from storage. Reviewing them brought up many memories of the past. CK was rewarded when some of the most precious items popped up. A lock of Leo’s baby hair from his first haircut, well preserved in a red envelope, and a few baby pictures too, all from 27 years ago! The most pleasant surprise and beautiful gifts at this time of the year. Leo always knows what we need, reminders of our happy times together! He is still with us and very much alive in the Spirit world. We only need to see with the eyes of our souls.
It had always been a family trip with Leo when we went for our hair appointments as a family. He reassured us that he was with us when we went to our hairdresser last week. While we were driving to and from the salon, the significant 888s appeared several times on license plates. I have shared a lot on how the 888 and the Infinity sign are significant for us. They are always a sign that our son is with us. I was just exclaiming how the 8s were popping up left, right, and center when suddenly we saw a vehicle with a sizeable 8 on its side. It was the first time we had seen the huge symbol of Infinity splashed across the back of a van. It even stopped in front of a red light so I could snap a picture.
Minutes later, we saw a car ready to make a left turn and it had a 303-license plate. Those of you who have read my previous blog posts would know that 303 is Leo’s code for “MOM.” He’s consistently confirming his presence in our lives. Love never dies and Life is eternal!
I am always grateful and humbled by the SnS (Signs and Synchronicities) from Leo. They are the most precious gifts we can ever hope for. These gifts have come in tangible ways and are heard and felt deeply in the heart. Before I started writing this essay, I asked Leo for a Message that could be shared with this community of parents with children across the veil, and especially at this difficult time of the year when we are missing them so much.
I was brought back to a time soon after Leo’s exit from this human world. What I received has stayed with me all these years. I heard him thanking me profusely for our love for each other.
He said, “Mom, you have a lot of love to give. Share that love you have for me with all the other children and young people.” I heard this repeatedly over a period of time. I thought I was making it up. When I shared my experience with my husband, we found that we were getting this similar and profound message. We knew our loving and compassionate son had given us a mission. We will be honouring him for the rest of our lives!
It is profound because there are so many children and young people around us who need love and support. It is profound because when we share and give our love, healing comes into our hearts. This journey has been a Spiritual Awakening for me and my husband. The grief has been a catalyst of our transformative journey. Grief has been a portal connecting us with the Divine and a Greater existence. We are grateful for this Gift.
“Be the Light for others.”
Happy Winter Solstice! Love and Peace to everyone!