An Epiphany!

It was the evening of August 28th. My husband CK and I were returning home after our walk by the lake and visiting Leo’s Tree. Without any triggers, I was suddenly feeling down and wishing that I could have done better as a mother. I was upset that I didn’t have a second chance now that Leo is not in the physical anymore.

We were only minutes from home when suddenly I saw in front of us a black car with a LEO license plate.

It always takes my breath away no matter how many times I have seen the LEO plate. And just as I was taking a picture, it was 8:10 pm on my phone.

I couldn’t take my eyes off the LEO and 810 on the screen, in awe and astonishment of how this could have happened. What a perfect synchronicity!

810 is Leo’s birthdate and his time of transition. I’ve called it one of Leo’s “Calling Codes.” I felt the warmth of my only child’s embrace. It was undeniable that he was comforting me, “Mom, I am right here with you and Dad. All’s well and all will be well.”

I was uplifted by these timely signs and synchronicities. The “could haves” and “should haves” are so typical of parents with children across the veil. Guilt and grief often go hand in hand. As a human being and a mother missing my precious son, I have no immunity from the ebb and flow of the grief wave.

Leo sees us, hears us, feels our emotions, and continues to love us. He knows from his much higher perspective the human thoughts that are causing suffering.

“You can grieve but don’t suffer.” I remember what he has told me since his transition. What Compassion and Wisdom!

On returning home, I realized Leo had already given us his daily “Hello!” that morning. We had finished our walk by the water, and I was thanking our son for being there with us. CK and I were driving out of the parking lot and there was a car with a “MR 810” license plate waiting for us!

“We are going home together, Mom and Dad.”

“Mr. 810”! That is just like our Leo, creative and fun.

It is Leo’s style to give us signs in succession. He has always been thorough with his work. He knows how our human minds work. There have been countless times when he’s used 810 to affirm a previous SnS.

Interestingly, we were at our “City’s Grind” one evening in June when we had a similar SnS. The Grind is a steep urban hiking trail with hundreds of steps to climb. We have always enjoyed the natural setting and the spectacular views of the City while we exercise at our own pace.

It was soothing to have the gentle breeze cooling us off as we were on the return. Suddenly, I was talking to CK about our reunion with Leo, in what would be the future in human terms. CK knows how much I look forward to that and always reassures me of it happening.

It is always perfect timing. We were only steps away from our car when CK said, “Look!”

A blue car was backing out from the parking stall, showing the licence plate: LEO 13G. I fumbled to get my phone out and managed to snap a picture just in time before the car disappeared.

Leo knows I love the reassurance and gave me an instantaneous response about our best family reunion. “Mom, listen to Dad; he’s right.”

I heard CK saying again, “Look!” when I saw the 810 licence plate on the car just a few feet away from where we were parked.

810 was the first sign he had given me that morning. The message from Leo was – and is – loud and clear.

How could I ever doubt our best reunion with Leo! My human mind sometimes plays tricks on me, causing me to worry. Thank you, my beloved Leo for the crystal clear signs and the instantaneous response!!!  He leaves me no room for uncertainty that he was present and giving us profound messages.

That evening in August when I got home after receiving the LEO plate and 810 simultaneously, I had a Summer Night’s Epiphany!

I am aware there is much more to the signs and synchronicities. The powerful and poignant messages conveyed are absolutely clear and remarkable. I was transported back to a time when something very challenging happened to our family. Leo was about 14 years old. CK got quite ill, and it was rare as he had always been happy and healthy.  I was worried sick. Leo had never seen us suffering and in such turmoil. One day, without saying anything, he handed me a piece of paper he had printed out from the computer. I read it quietly and then taped it onto our fridge door as a constant reminder. It stayed there for many years until I put it away when there was a renovation, and I can’t find it now. But I will never forget the essence of those profound words.

“To be healthy physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, live earnestly in the Present.
Do not regret the Past, you cannot change it.
Do not worry about the Future, it is not here yet.
The Present is all you have!”

~Buddha ~

My son is my greatest teacher as I have said in “The Infinite Bond: My Son’s Messages from across the Veil,” inspired by him. He continues to teach me. The irrefutable signs from him are like a gentle slap on my back. “Wake up, Mom! Be Here and Now!”

It is human nature to wander back to the past with regrets and to anticipate a future with worries of things that might never happen. So, we are constantly torturing ourselves with guilt and fears when we need to be focusing on living well in the present moment. I couldn’t have moved forward without the teachings from this Compassionate and Wise Being I am honoured to call my Son. It seems so much easier to be compassionate with others and to forgive others. It is a different matter when it comes to forgiving ourselves. We often forget to practice self-compassion. It is not selfish to love oneself, meaning that we need to take good care of ourselves physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Unless we include ourselves, we don’t really know how to be kind and loving to others. Grief is challenging enough. We don’t need to pile unnecessary stress onto ourselves such as guilt, fear, and worry created by our ego mind. It is amazing how, when we know to be kind and gentle with ourselves, navigating this unbearable journey becomes more bearable.

The next morning, on the 29th, these words appeared in Sandy’s daily poem she received from her Team of Ascended Masters who guide her with her writings. They validated my insights from the night before. It was not the first nor will it be the last time Leo has come through her poems giving me support and encouragement. Sandy has kindly acknowledged that Leo is one of the benevolent Masters in that Team.

The human brain
engages quickly,
looking for details
to fill in,
creating stories,
speculation,
asking who
or why or
when.

Let your breath
bring you to
present,
where past and future
do not exist,
Here is Peace
that never leaves
you,
return your awareness
to simply This.

Breathe in release,
relieve the body,
from tensing,
waiting for what is
next to come,
with Gratitude
look at your surroundings,
this simple moment
is You as One.

Allow burden to lift
off your shoulders,
you place it there
in a familiar pose,
Love asks for no-thing
for you to carry,
your innocence is
what Love knows.

Here You Are,
Love sees you
wholly,
you need do no-thing
for You to Be,
simply return to
your soul shining,
This is Love,
as You,
simply.

From Sandy Soulsister’s poem, posted on August 29th at www.youarelovenow.com

We are all Love, and are always loved. We are grateful, Son, for our ongoing communication from and with you!

This is congruent with Leo’s style of sending additional SnS to impress upon us the messages. He has always been an excellent communicator. And he continues to communicate with us in all ways: words, music, and whatever snags our attention.

After reading the poem, I went to join CK in the living room and before I could sit down to talk with him, the TV played a familiar piece of piano music. It was the same music Leo used to play for us on his piano, impromptu. I can still see him playing while standing up, his long fingers moving elegantly on the piano keys. We knew it was him saying,

“I am here, Mom and Dad”, “Enjoy life and have fun!”

Our home is alive again with Leo’s Presence. Comforting and Reassuring!  Words are insufficient to express our thoughts and feelings. Perhaps Awe and Joy and Gratitude to our greatest teacher, our beloved Son!